Saturday, August 21, 2010

this few days i hyper le i not emo le i not sad le i oni cry at chinese period everyday... but why when i hyper everybody emo, sad, cry??? i seriously hate it... now i emo down le think of him again, feel like smsing him, think of those memories we had... i feel like crying i sad... everybody trying to cheer me up by making me laugh, say jokes to me because they dun wan me cry sad emo anymore... but thanks to u i have to forced my smile out in front of them, laugh , sing as if im not sad emo or i dun feel like crying tis few day.... but my heart broken into pieces, my mind went blank, feel like cutting my hand, everyday cry at class thanks to u... everyday chinese period i cried because of u... u teach me to do well in chinese de, u promise me u nvr leave me and u say u will teach me chinese 4ever de... i now cn tell u I FAIL MY CHINESE FOR TIS YEAR... I TOTALLY NO MOOD TO STUDY CHINESE THANKS TO U. all my friend ask me to forget u, dun tink foolish thing and dun sad emo cry anymore.... i promise jungwen tat i will not say any emo things le if not she will slash her hand which i dun wan it happen and i dun wan my friend to get hurt because of me... IM USELESS, STUPID AND SUCKS TTM! I HATE MY LIFE I HATE EVERYTHING HAPPENING TO ME... MY MIND GOT ALOT OF QUESTION MARK.... BUT I TINK I WILL NOT SOLVE ANY QUESTION BA..BECAUSE I TOTALLY GIVE UP ON MY LIFE LE... YESTERDAY AFTER NPCC I COME HOME I WANTED TO CUT PULSE SO I CN DIE AND FORGETTING EVERYTHING IM HOLDING TO A FRUIT CUTTER AND LOOKING AT MY HAND... I CRIED AGAIN LAST NIGHT...
my mind suddenly tink of beginning of tis year and june... wat happen between me and meiyu... i tink me and her cn oni be friend ba... after so many things happen tis year between me and her im tired i dun knw its whose fault also maybe its mine ba... :( me and her from last year de happy happy whenever i feel sad she will be there for me, she always be there for me even i do wrong or correct thanks i really treat u as my jie and bff last year but not now le... we become more farapart, more cool to each other even though we talk to each other everyday we still not as close as last time le ... im sry... LETS BE FRIEND BA...

i seriously dun knw how to be happy le
i change alot everybody saying
last time i ws happy cheerful de ren
but now im not i become sad emo everyday crying de
i dun wan tis to carry on le
im tired of tis le
wat happy means?what life means?cn anybody tell me?
anything happen to me promise me to takecare k?
posted by nickname:piggy on 2:52 PM