Tuesday, August 17, 2010

2day
at sch, careen cut her hand, but small small oni no bleed... actually quite happy de keep singsong with jingwen, draw my hand, talk to jingwen they all and slping in class.... was laughing until 11+ when i recieved a message by him, after seeing the message im actually trying to control my tears from coming out so i pretended i very slpy and keep yawn so to let my tears come out, den i lie down at my table tinking of him and our memories tears come out, jingwen suddenly tickle me and i was shocked i forced myself to smile and not crying infront of them.... force myself to concentrate on wat im doin and dun tink of it treat it as everything is still alright... i knw tat im lying to myself trying to make things worse and not making me feel better... dnt lesson is like im trying to make myself concentrate concentrate concentrate because im using something sharp, but my mind keep making me feel like crying out... after sch i was quite alright as i make myself laugh smile and other and not emoing sad or wat... sms hf and lynn ask them where they all lynn at around deyi sec area sry for making u coming back sch because of me... hf say she at hub... lynn come back sch went to dnt room with her cause she need go but teacher wan go see doc so go canteen bought oreo ice blended and lynn bought green apple ice blended i tink so... after tat went to hub with lynn and wenquan... reach there pei wenquan go eat and went hub meet hf as she at hub, bought milk tea, wen quan go home. lynn me and hf went to subway as lynn wan buy cookies so went in to seat after a while he called me, ask me when i goin reach home text him so i chiong home thought got something he wan say... saw lynn at bus emoing so text her and text him tell him i at around home le... he said okay at first but then when i reach home, he text say lets _____, im shocked sad and i cried... dun wanna say anymore thing le...

to him,

morning we are still very happy when we messaging each other wat i do, wat happen to u and me and wats goin on?im blur, i thought some goin to happen so i rush home after u called me... when i reach home u send me tis message... u wan me change i will change de why u jus cnt give me a change? u say not because of me is u but wats goin on??? i cried almost every night because of u... when i need somebody to be there u always be there, making me happy why now like tat??? haizzz maybe its not u its me ba sry... u tell me not to be sad but i cant ... when im eating jus now i actually crying u knw? when im writing tis my eyes full of tears... i thought tis relationship between me and u will be happy de but why now.... ? maybe other say de is truth ba, u dun love me like last time u love me le, u like other people le... u cn tell me but why keep it from me??? i drew some words on my hand when im at sch we were messaging each other happily...
after tat when i reach home u text my tat sms i drew tis...

i seriously wan knw why oni why... why cant u jus let me knw it??? haizzz...... i jus wan a simple thing from u is be in my heart 4ever but now its impossible le :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( i will remember u because u give me the best memory in my life thanks tc and bye... -the end-

people remember dun be like me cherish the relationship u have now dun be like me cry every night because having relationship should be a happy thing not a sad thing

你说你不会放开我的手，

可是现在已经放开了，

留我一个人在这边伤心，

难过。。。谢谢你让我有这些美好的回忆，

也要谢谢你留我在这里，一个人哭。。。 :'(

i will still cut my hand if i really cn tahan... sry people..

posted by nickname:piggy on 7:08 PM