2day not a good day for me, morning wake up saw yr text, inside the text there was "ILOVEU" tis few words... i cried, tink of those time how u make me happy, sad, cry, all th emotions but after tat day yr text for break till now my emotions all is hide de, i dun dare to show all my friend my sad, cried face, because of u ... :( luckily my mum went out liao if not i have to cry in front of her.... i remember all the lies u said, i remember every single words u said to me, u nvr knw u have ruin my mood for the rest of the day, i wan study 2day but thanks to u i totally no mood liao.... i promise u i wont cry, _____, sad or tink of u when im not in the mood but u nvr knew it cause my heart breaks, havent found a way to put it back, i knew i have to stay in tis manner 4ever, isit my fault? its not yr fault its mine, i was the one who cnt put down tis r/s yesterday jingwen write at my paper say tis:

hongster never die,

tiong xim is a lie,

believe u are blind,

love seriously is a blind

posted by nickname:piggy on 11:14 AM

Friday, September 24, 2010

change new blogskin within 1 hour lazy so nothing much change... lynn dun knw need how long lor...
for those who care for me , i knw u all care and concern for me but seriously my back now is alright not tat pain le... + exam coming dun wan anything happen when exam coming if during exam suddenly something happen to me ( touch wood) i will go see immediately okay???i seriously dun wan u all sad or wat because of my injury...
maybe i will be alright by 2moro i dun knw much also, but if more seriously like jus now, i maybe seriously will go hospital. thanks the 4 people for bluffing me go doc yesterday, haha! lynn talk to herself at her phone. everybody jus look normal but i know they bluffing me but i cant go away jus go home s my bag is at hweefang there and my key is inside.... sad case sia... k la nothing post liao will post asap de :)

i need you to be at myside when im not in the mood
but when im totally alright jus wan a peace u will always be there
u everytime come in the wrong time but u nvr knw tat
cause i will hide it 4ever inside my heart...
posted by nickname:piggy on 9:57 PM

Monday, September 20, 2010

will be disappear from blog for a few days... sry... i knw i have become more bad liao, i learn how to escaped from class and s****! im sry to those who is care to me de.... damn sry!
posted by nickname:piggy on 6:49 PM

Friday, September 10, 2010

hi, have been rotting at home the whole day 2day... :(
my mind went to the wrong side again, tink of him the whole day, cried more den 5 times seriously make u tink alot of things, my eye is swollen wish it will be alright by 2moro...
my heart hurts ttm when i tink of him, its like somebody use alot of knife and stab it....
i wanted to take a knife and jus kill myself,
你要我忘记全部东西，可是你不明白为什么我忘不了。。。 要我忘记就是等于要我去死。。。
dun knw why suddenly my mind tink of tis sentence out...
you will nvr knw how many times i cried because of u, i cried everyday, every night because of u
but 2day cried more den .... yup maybe u are right im the stupidest person among all my friends
alot people sad tis few days dun knw why i tink relationship ba wish they will cheerup dun emo le! exam round the corners i havent touch my books preparing to fail.... maybe im wrong in everything i have done ba....
i jus wan my mum to care me more isit very difficult??? shes seem to ignore me almost everyday :(

2day is not a good day, my weekend is ruin by today nvm forget it!...
posted by nickname:piggy on 10:15 PM

Thursday, September 9, 2010

okay.... thought 2day will be rotting at home for the whole day but... I WENT OUT!!! haha! wake at 7+8 smsing with samantha aka mummy! den meet shalini at 11.30 went to hub at first go buy sushi for myself.... next went to j8 wanted to buy melody but left small de which i tink she got le so i bought pig rabbit for her... den went back amk hub to watch movie with simin and crystal chew... is a scary movie i shouted quite a few times... haha! den went to meet hweefang wanted to give her the pig rabbit den go home de but in the end stayed at youth infinity until 5.30? with HWEE FANG AND SAMANTHA AKA MUMMY! hahas! played snapsnap with them was laughing non-stop lor because..... long story lazy type haha! dun wanna come home so went to find aibe at 409 shun bian go makan my dinner.... at ther until 6? 6+? den come home to play com.... but shouldnt have come home so early lor... i cried again haizz.... i jus couldnt stop thinking of him... my mind is full of his memory... :'( sad case....
nose bleed again the third day or fourth day le ... wish exam time dun nose bleed!!!!

im totally dead inside when i saw u with other people...
u thought im alright but im not...
my heart is bleeding as quick as it cn
every night i cried because of u
jus couldnt stop everything... :'(
posted by nickname:piggy on 8:23 PM

Friday, September 3, 2010

2day last day of sch again :( something happen again...
first! :
everytime last day of sch sure got something happening to me and meiyu... why we jus cant have a break every last day of sch last year tat matter tis year tis matter next few years how cn we survive through all the last day of sch??? 1 year got 4 last day of sch... 4 years ley ??? 4x4=16 ... so we must go though tis 16 last day of sch la?! i rather die den having tis kind of matter...

haizzz seriously everything must stop my mind and heart cnt take it le... everytime something happen my mind tink of is..... killing myself! why?!why?!why?!why?!why?!
why cant things jus stop?! why everything must be happening to me?! why u cant let me knw before calling my parents down?! why everything must be goin wrong and not goin to the right track for me?! i knew tat i have ruin my life... all! all my life! all the thing! either is good or bad i have ruin it!!! nothing cn change them back to the right track le... i have given up everything... dun have the courage to move on le...

secondly!:
i wan to have parents like some of u! if yr parents dun even give a damn about u dun forget u have true friends by yr side! dun be like me jiu okay le... anything jus go find yr friend they will be there for u ( sometimes )

yes! i dun hav dad but i have mum... my mum dun even bother me le, why i have to move on? my life is meaningless le i have friend all my friends with me de last time but now ley? he say break jiu break and den almost all my friend gone! gone 4ever! all say im the one at fault de NVM lor u happy jiu cn le! i rather im being the one who is being tortured here and dun wan u to get any problem! u cn push all the blame to me de!!! i dun mind i hack care !!! ya im the stupid 1 and u are the smart 1! u nvr do wrong things all is mine! u wan say bad things about me behind my back i seriously dun mind! haizzz...

thirdly:
wat i left now is friends... because of him almost all my friend gone 4ever! my parents hack care me dun even bother me at all den why i need bother them so much???

friends
whats friend?
wat cn i do to get them back ?
i really need them... :(

parent
yes i have mum not dad
but she dun bother about me at all!
when i needed her so much where is she?!
with her friends tats the answer
i said i needed her she say ltr
nvm lor! hack care me jiu hack care me!
why should i bother when u dun???
i hate my family 4ever!

how i wish i was not in tis world before,
i feel tat i make alot people sad or worry about me for nothing...
it makes me feel tat im useless...
so many things happening and i was hack care???
when im writing tis i cried....
so many things happen in jus 1 day!
seriously i cnt take it le...
posted by nickname:piggy on 8:49 PM

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

posted by nickname:piggy on 10:36 PM

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

tis few days, is like a hell to me... tolerate her to the max le so 2day at class thanks to her shouted 5 to 6 times... whole class tell me chill dun care her but u tink i cn meh??? nvm.... 2day have little india trip... "thanks" mdm yick for 'caring' for me.... ask me go up bus den say my leg is swollen like hell le lor still need walk alot, leg now damn pain cnt ren le... talk to weiting for around 30 mintues for 2moro thing and come home... no mood angry plus exam round corner le trying to make myself relax and not stress out lor.... 2day really mood down le... headache, giddy, leg pain andandand cried at class 2day at class.... luckly nobody saw lor... damn tired maybe slpin soon ba... wish she dun pissed me off 2moro.... dun make me shout at canteen or classroom or parade square pls i beg her
tats all for 2day nothing to post mood not good.... leg veryveryveryvery the pain...
posted by nickname:piggy on 8:05 PM

Monday, August 23, 2010

yesterday
tuition was fine everything was damn fine... wanted to go simin house play de but mum say my leg like tat still wan go ouut so no go her house go home straight lor.... spam shing-e and simin hp during tution time because seriously SIANZ!! nothing to do de lor.... use 45 minutes to do the worksheet and 45 minutes to talk... and well tution time keep laughing thanks to kelvin!!! hahas! bought ice-cream to eat and treated simin to eat also :) im kind haha! i knw i very bhb !! den forgotten i cnt drink cold water and eat cold things but i still eat ice-cream and drink green tea and 7up :) hahas!! seriously is a very boring weekend thanks to my leg haizzz....
2day
wear slipper to sch thanks to my left leg....
pe- cnt do anything so oni sit there talk to my friend lor and lynn they all :) indeed was happy de but thanks to careen ng my mood from happy to dulan! say i liar see yrself first la get the fact out before u talk cock cn anot??? i got say u isit??? u come say people nvr see people mood de !
sci- was slpin all the way... test got 19/25 same score as hatiqah and the highest in class so teacher give biscuit to us... jingwen and celestine keep making me take out the biscuit but i insist nonononono... they took my money and pen but yes they return me la! but give jingwen $1.10 free because she took my $10 and returned me her pocket de money which is $8.90 hahaz! funny sia den after tat still got 1 period slpin all the way nvr listen to class happyhappy :p
chi- yick give us something which i anyhow do de because tired den fight with careen but yick come say us so big le still fight??? i say her back is she ownself no leg to walk de ma... the paper with her still wan people to walk to her as if she very big like tat... careen ng say shut up la... i say back my mouth right shut yr f-ing hell mouth up la i talk yr business arh??? den she no say anything le...
recess- geraldine come to our class to wait for us den 2gether go down to canteen... me weiting geraldine armanta siva and meiyu eat vegetarian stall i tink so careen ng at there keep staring at us so i go buy cold water to cool myself down lor... den when i turn back to see weiting there saw miyu telling me to go back faster because geraldine go find careen and say her dun keep staring because she eating.... i quickly go back and pull geraldine back to seat and tell careen ng eat her food dun keep staring us... den she say me back eat yr food also la non of yr business right??? hope u eat until choke i scold her back i got curse u ma??? i also curse u eat so many nugget also choke dao la! den mr ng saw come talk to me say u knw her condition den i say back we knw we tolerate until max le! mr ng say nothing go careen there talk to her.....
history- class was alright, teacher give tat time the group get most point de chocolate.... which is my group den have quiz...
eng- cher no come ms lee come take over and give our class green paper to make our teacher day card... i worte for miss chin because a few people write oni and i tink she quite kind la so write for her lor... careen ng come over to kishand seat tat time i sitting over there talking to weiting they all...she come and step my right leg luckly not left leg for around 5 minutes den got a crack at my bone.... but she step not so pain de lor so i tink okay la she wan step let her step but if i cnt tolerate i will make her back lor.... den ms lee scold her ask her go back to her place den we at there laugh...all scold me why let her step stupid isit??? i at there laugh nia...
maths- mrs sigh(dun knw how spell la) come in to class for the dun knw wat stupid look for our class den mr pang look nervous to me because he keep say until..... hahaha!!!... but happy is for 1 period nia the 2nd period she left whole class start talking changing places throwing paper and of course shout here and there haha!!! at there using hp spamming siva hp for fun hahah because toooooo boring liao =)
after sch- stay back with hwee fang, lynn and zhaoming was quite fun haha!!! but when 6+ goin home got people sms me tell me go settle something so i went off without tell them ( sry arh ) wanted to sms them when i settle finish everything which is around 6.40 like tat den lynn sms come le haha!!!
jus now played audi with samantha aka mummy! she damn pro sia!!! pro kia!!! hahas!!!

now emoing.... haizzz seriously dun knw how to settle those thing when i went off de... damn difficult and dun wan anything happen =( haizzz......

i look okay outside but inside im totally dead... i act happy is because i dun wan u all to worry if i did make u worry about me im sry pls forgive me...
posted by nickname:piggy on 9:32 PM

Saturday, August 21, 2010

this few days i hyper le i not emo le i not sad le i oni cry at chinese period everyday... but why when i hyper everybody emo, sad, cry??? i seriously hate it... now i emo down le think of him again, feel like smsing him, think of those memories we had... i feel like crying i sad... everybody trying to cheer me up by making me laugh, say jokes to me because they dun wan me cry sad emo anymore... but thanks to u i have to forced my smile out in front of them, laugh , sing as if im not sad emo or i dun feel like crying tis few day.... but my heart broken into pieces, my mind went blank, feel like cutting my hand, everyday cry at class thanks to u... everyday chinese period i cried because of u... u teach me to do well in chinese de, u promise me u nvr leave me and u say u will teach me chinese 4ever de... i now cn tell u I FAIL MY CHINESE FOR TIS YEAR... I TOTALLY NO MOOD TO STUDY CHINESE THANKS TO U. all my friend ask me to forget u, dun tink foolish thing and dun sad emo cry anymore.... i promise jungwen tat i will not say any emo things le if not she will slash her hand which i dun wan it happen and i dun wan my friend to get hurt because of me... IM USELESS, STUPID AND SUCKS TTM! I HATE MY LIFE I HATE EVERYTHING HAPPENING TO ME... MY MIND GOT ALOT OF QUESTION MARK.... BUT I TINK I WILL NOT SOLVE ANY QUESTION BA..BECAUSE I TOTALLY GIVE UP ON MY LIFE LE... YESTERDAY AFTER NPCC I COME HOME I WANTED TO CUT PULSE SO I CN DIE AND FORGETTING EVERYTHING IM HOLDING TO A FRUIT CUTTER AND LOOKING AT MY HAND... I CRIED AGAIN LAST NIGHT...
my mind suddenly tink of beginning of tis year and june... wat happen between me and meiyu... i tink me and her cn oni be friend ba... after so many things happen tis year between me and her im tired i dun knw its whose fault also maybe its mine ba... :( me and her from last year de happy happy whenever i feel sad she will be there for me, she always be there for me even i do wrong or correct thanks i really treat u as my jie and bff last year but not now le... we become more farapart, more cool to each other even though we talk to each other everyday we still not as close as last time le ... im sry... LETS BE FRIEND BA...

i seriously dun knw how to be happy le
i change alot everybody saying
last time i ws happy cheerful de ren
but now im not i become sad emo everyday crying de
i dun wan tis to carry on le
im tired of tis le
wat happy means?what life means?cn anybody tell me?
anything happen to me promise me to takecare k?
posted by nickname:piggy on 2:52 PM

Friday, August 20, 2010

haizzz back to post again
morning wake up le hwee fang text me ask me bring jasket for her den i say okay lor.... but hor damn bad luck de lor, fell down because i nvr see carefully i so careless.... sprain my left ankle and my right leg bleed :((((.... sch was alright, geo test was like OMG! see the map me and jingwen at there anyhow blast a country name or a place name in !!! after finish we quickly go see the map i tink i got 2 or 4 like tat nia all fail /15 get 2 or 4 haha!!! i was seriously no mood after recess and after sch de lor... after recess is chinese sit behind alone emoing crying... listening to music while listening to mdm yick lesson after tat jolene come find me say boon loong ask her i no tell her anything meh?? indeed i dulan + feel like crying le lor because of the stupid thing she ask lor... jolene cried i feel sad + i feel i done something wrong i should not have tell her anything jus now she cry until .... i seriously dun knw wat to say lor lolx! npcc got lecture and tent pitching quite fun afer all but i cnt do anything as my leg like tat sirs dun let me do anything :( see they all do quite fun because ALL OF THEM THE SHOE HAS BECOME MUDDY LE!! mine is still white :( hahax! yesterday night till now no eat until anything .... haha !!!

to jolene :
i care about u because u my jie friend and best friend, jus now when u crying u knw i feel like crying also?? i will always be there for u but seriously is not i trust him is i trust u... u need wat i will be there when u need me i will be there for u de dun cry le kays??? i will say anything i feel about u in front of u next time k???
posted by nickname:piggy on 8:18 PM

Thursday, August 19, 2010

2day
sch was alright, keep telling myself tat nothing will happen everything will be fine de... some people say telling ourself nothing will happen, sure will nothing happen but tats not true... because 2day i tell myself a million or more times nothing will happen careen will not find trouble nothing will seriously happen but in the end something happen... actually was alright from starting of sch to lit which is after recess the 1 period... chinese period dun knw wat happen me also my mind suddenly tink of him... after tat took my things went to the back of the class it at meiyu sit as i no mood and my tears come out le dun wan anybody to knw it so quickly wipe off... after tat saw hwee fang goin back her class walking down from spiral staircase there so i quickly lie down and treat nothing happen if not dun knw wat she will de... haizzz... careen ng come make me again try control go out of classroom and find jolene they all den cherping call my nn at a wrong time because i seriously in a no and bad mood i shout back kana scolded by teacher... nvm lor after sch thanks to weiting, siva, armanta and peijun for making me happy played with them until 4+ den took lots of pics.. posted on facebook... see them to busstop and walk back home using long way as i knw tat if i go home early my tears will come out de... so 5+ den reach home but still cried.. :'( tink of him our memories and wat happen i seriously cnt control my tears... cried every night... haizzz :'( i cried again when im posting tis i cried... :( smile is easy but why jus i cant smile in front of u all when im feel like crying or wat?!?!?! why?!?!?! i really dun knw le wat should i do??? wat i need do so i cn forget u??? wat cn i do to make myself happier??? i seriously dun knw wat smile happy all those good things mean le i oni knw wat sad cry all those sad thing means??? haizzz....
posted by nickname:piggy on 7:24 PM

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

haizzz, back to post le... seriously dun knw wat to say for now... as im crying now...
TODAY!
1st 2 period maths- jingwen and me at class using my hp listen song mr pang scared us 2times as he walk come our direction 2 times den when we notice, he reaching our table here le so qickly off the song as i tink im blasting... celest no mood dun knw wat happen also... after tat jane come over, we chatted on song again, me and jingwen cried at class shakina saw le at there shocked see us like we do something wrong den we 2 laugh... totally dun knw wat i learn 2day... ... den when teacher leave she come my seat say cheerling goh jun kai den jane scold her i at there say nothing lor...

1period english- did worksheet 2moro got test tink so.... nvr learn also... hack care...-.-
recess- happy happy go recess :) go sch library to lent 1 book as i no english storybook le all read finish le thanks weiting for accompany me :) talk to library auntie for a while about careen ng den went to canteen to makan :)

2period sci- happy happy go recess, when go back from canteen to classroom angry le thanks to careen ng also! she go tell yanhui tat meizhen say her something which is false de lor! den i dun feel like goin back class so i follow jolene they all for 15 minutes and kana sabo by careen ng again -.-!!! damn pissed off by tat time den meizhen ask careen ng go out for awhile to ask something careen ng dun wan den when i go back classroom i sibei dulan, shout at careen ng say " you humji kia! admit wat u say la! dun dare go settle still wan tio into taiji -.-!!! " mrs kwong and whole class look at me thanks to careen ng! den i go out of classroom teacher come out find me den careen ng at there happy lor! den nvm go back classroom careen ng come find me say she will remember i scold her humji and cb de den i shout back i will also remember u say fuck you, cheebye, knnbccb, kns, knn! she nothing say go back to her seat!

after tat art 2 period last 2 le- careen ng no come disturb me i damn happy! let teacher see until my draft she say cn but very difficult to draw on canvas so now still stressing my mind out to come out with a idea!

after sch- waited for hwee fang around 1 hour plus because of something den me lynn jolene and her go amk national library to study all tat... emoing+study until 4+5 den go somewhere to do things with them... 6+ took 268 with them they alight at amk hub there i alight at mrt station because wan go do something.... den went home at 7pm

I SERIOUSLY DUN KNW HOW TO CHERISH PEOPLE WELL... LIKE MY FRIEND, HIM AND OTHER ... IM SRY FOR WAT I HAVE DONE TO U ALL TIS FEW DAYS BECAUSE OF MY MOOD DAMN FUCKING HELL SRY!!!! :( EXP 2DAY GO OUT WITH JOLENE LYNN AND HWEE FANG I TINK I SHOW THEM ATTITUDE IM SRY!

TO CAREEN NG: U DUN HAPPY COME TIO PEOPLE TAIJI CN ANOT ?! MAKE ME SHOUT AT CLASS 2DAY, MAKE ME DAMN NO MOOD AND MAKE ME DAMN PISSED OFF BY WAT U DO 2DAY!!! IF U HUMJI DUN MAKE TROUBLE WITH PEOPLE LA MAKE ME SHOUT VULGARITIES IINFRONT OF MRS KWONG AND CLASS! THANKS AND FUCK OFF FROM MY SIGHT THANKS! EVERYDAY NO MAKE TROUBLE NOT HAPPY DE LEY, U WAN PLAY I PLAY WITH U LOR!
posted by nickname:piggy on 9:18 PM

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

2day
at sch, careen cut her hand, but small small oni no bleed... actually quite happy de keep singsong with jingwen, draw my hand, talk to jingwen they all and slping in class.... was laughing until 11+ when i recieved a message by him, after seeing the message im actually trying to control my tears from coming out so i pretended i very slpy and keep yawn so to let my tears come out, den i lie down at my table tinking of him and our memories tears come out, jingwen suddenly tickle me and i was shocked i forced myself to smile and not crying infront of them.... force myself to concentrate on wat im doin and dun tink of it treat it as everything is still alright... i knw tat im lying to myself trying to make things worse and not making me feel better... dnt lesson is like im trying to make myself concentrate concentrate concentrate because im using something sharp, but my mind keep making me feel like crying out... after sch i was quite alright as i make myself laugh smile and other and not emoing sad or wat... sms hf and lynn ask them where they all lynn at around deyi sec area sry for making u coming back sch because of me... hf say she at hub... lynn come back sch went to dnt room with her cause she need go but teacher wan go see doc so go canteen bought oreo ice blended and lynn bought green apple ice blended i tink so... after tat went to hub with lynn and wenquan... reach there pei wenquan go eat and went hub meet hf as she at hub, bought milk tea, wen quan go home. lynn me and hf went to subway as lynn wan buy cookies so went in to seat after a while he called me, ask me when i goin reach home text him so i chiong home thought got something he wan say... saw lynn at bus emoing so text her and text him tell him i at around home le... he said okay at first but then when i reach home, he text say lets _____, im shocked sad and i cried... dun wanna say anymore thing le...

to him,

morning we are still very happy when we messaging each other wat i do, wat happen to u and me and wats goin on?im blur, i thought some goin to happen so i rush home after u called me... when i reach home u send me tis message... u wan me change i will change de why u jus cnt give me a change? u say not because of me is u but wats goin on??? i cried almost every night because of u... when i need somebody to be there u always be there, making me happy why now like tat??? haizzz maybe its not u its me ba sry... u tell me not to be sad but i cant ... when im eating jus now i actually crying u knw? when im writing tis my eyes full of tears... i thought tis relationship between me and u will be happy de but why now.... ? maybe other say de is truth ba, u dun love me like last time u love me le, u like other people le... u cn tell me but why keep it from me??? i drew some words on my hand when im at sch we were messaging each other happily...
after tat when i reach home u text my tat sms i drew tis...

i seriously wan knw why oni why... why cant u jus let me knw it??? haizzz...... i jus wan a simple thing from u is be in my heart 4ever but now its impossible le :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( i will remember u because u give me the best memory in my life thanks tc and bye... -the end-

people remember dun be like me cherish the relationship u have now dun be like me cry every night because having relationship should be a happy thing not a sad thing

你说你不会放开我的手，

可是现在已经放开了，

留我一个人在这边伤心，

难过。。。谢谢你让我有这些美好的回忆，

也要谢谢你留我在这里，一个人哭。。。 :'(

i will still cut my hand if i really cn tahan... sry people..

posted by nickname:piggy on 7:08 PM

Monday, August 16, 2010

tis few day my mood is still like mountain :'( i cried tis few days because of somebody...
saturday and sunday
text him,call him and msn him wanted to talk to him nicely clamly trying to control my tears.... but in the end i ask him a question at msn"are u angry with me?" because i was like spamming his msn and handphone, no reply he oni said "no im not" den i ask him "den why no pick up my call, reply my sms and msn?" he said "no mood." i tink is because of me lor :'(...
yesterday
got tuition, trying to control my tears because he sms me say tat he really no mood, he will be mia and dun call him all tat.... and if anything happen, take care... at tat time my tears really drop le my friend saw ask me i say nothing happen oni tired so yawn... :'( after tuition went to hub wanted to study with jolene but really no mood so say no go den jingwen ask me go out so i go lor... waited for her at hub around 15 minutes and saw hwee fang lynn and rebekah.. went eat mos burger with jingwen went lan also... after tat went to meet hwee fang and lynn as they watched finish movie le... hf say she goin jubilee find her sis and mei den lynn me and 2 boy follow her lor... i went home at 8 i tink so ... text him again but no reply damn worried about him ask him wat happen he also no tell me..... called his phone for like damn many time 10+ times but no 1 pick up all tat... reach home i cried...
2day
at sch, tears almost burst out but thanks to jingwen and some people for cheering me up thanks people... after sch stayed back at canteen to do work careen follow so we went to library she also follow den we kana chased out of library thanks to her also... so we go lp to do work... in the end go canteen ... got alot of thing happen 2day... dun wanna say about it as i cried... :(

to him,
i really dun knw wat happen to u... can u at least tell me? i cried because of u, u suddenly sms me tell me those thing did u know tat i will feel sad??? last time we were fine de but why now like tat??? call u no answer sms u no reply msn like hack care jus tell me u no mood den no tell me other things le... :'( i wanna tell u everything but u now dun care me le, i use other people number u got reply and reply until very happy but why when i use my number sms u, u bu shi no reply jiu shi not happy sadsad de ??? whywhywhy??? sry tat i make u feel stress, sry for everything im really sorry, i really dun knw wat i cn do :(

to careen,
u wan cut hand isit? cn i pei u next time u cut how many i cut how many... i will remember the day u promise me those things and now u break it... u 2day beat wall 100 times but not hard de, i pei u hit i use my 100% strength hit, my hand all red... u ley??? u everytime wan irritate people de cn u try to control yrself or wat pls i beg u...

我多希望我们可以回到那个时候，
我们每天一起讲笑话，
一起打电话，
我生气或伤心时你弄我开心，
一起玩，一起做全部的东西。
我知道，我们不可能会到那时。
可是我骗不了我自已。

i cried again :( im sry tat i broke my promise to some people.. :'(
posted by nickname:piggy on 7:53 PM

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

back here again,
have 2day mc sianzzz. but cn skip miss chin lesson so quite. sry meiyu for ps you... dun mind too i also wan go sch de but.. :( haha! 2day careen irritated hwee fang by calling her chiobu! den she was like damn angry?? i den drag careen back lor in order to let hwee fang cool down?? haha!! sure have dozen of homework need do de lor when monday go back sch:( cnt pe for a week also sad case lor napfa dun need do le :( quite fun lor 2day, maths period at there sing song with jingwen play with her and celest also... sci lie down and close my eye for a few minutes because feeling damn not well also :(...
most happy thing is:
little india trip cancel happyhappy but sure got 1 more de lor sadsad haha!
currently chatting with samantha mummy and listening to song :) goin slp le jus eat medi ...
posted by nickname:piggy on 9:46 PM

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

back to post,
have not post for a month + haha not busy or wat is LAZY!!! haha!!! tis few weeks is a kind of alot of thing happen so no mood to post anything... sry guys...
last week something ahppen make my mood like a mountain up down up down but almost all is down de lor go out with friend also no mood wish i nvr destroy their mood also haha! last few day is down de lor so rarely smile rarely laugh... happy thing is thanks to some peoples my mood up le haha! cn laughh and smile happily le but 2day not feeling well throat damn pain... jolene angry with me because i ps her but the truth is i oni tell her i maybe go out with her nia lor she say i say i sure go out de .... den angry le :(
nothing to post le bb
posted by nickname:piggy on 8:22 PM

Sunday, June 13, 2010

2day is a short post ba,
tis few days go out with jiayi crystal go play bb and den at night webcamming with yen fern every night haha now webcamming with her also hahahah!!! is fun webcamming with her cn bully her and also keep laughing sometime she also bully me haha !!! :) nvm!!! the fun part is yesterday i bully her like OMG!!! hahahaha!!! when she say byebye i said bye but in the end we still keep chatting and webcamming until we say bye the 3 time like tat i tink so den we go slp haha wish she have dream until ... hahahaha!!!!

okay post until here byebye
posted by nickname:piggy on 1:44 PM

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

camp is fun and exciting really learnt alot from my trainers and alot of people :) although is really damn tiring but still fun :) haha
last day got farewell ceremony for cbss mgss and thailand the university i cried and my buddy yen fern also cried because i cried haha werid right haha! actuaaaly the funny thing is i told her not to cry if not i will also cry but in the end i cired first i also dun knw y maybe i miss her camp days pass so fast :( miss all the malaysian sia!!! expecially yen fern, eng jee, irene and a few i dun knw their name :) indeed cried alot tat night thanks yen fern for entertaining me when im at her sch :) haha and thanks the 4 people yen fern, eng jee, irene, shakina make my last day when we is at bugis walking buying thing finding for sovenirs fun happy and lastly exciting laughing on the way we finding things cnt stop because of a few things haha wish irene leg will be better soon and xin en her leg also and lastly shalini also! haha
for irene, yen fern, engjee: thanks thanks thanks so much for the pass few days playing around with u all laughing with u all and alot of thing remember of the thing? haha damn funny right? haha chat on facebook regularly and add my email : hotshot12391@hotmail.com chat at there :) haha wish u all exam good luck okay? haha :) wish u all have fun at singapore although i nvr entertain until u all tat much :) will miss u all so much 1 :)

i miss my trainers malaysian buddies expecially irene,eng jee,yen fern and alot of people :)
posted by nickname:piggy on 12:20 AM

Friday, May 21, 2010

2day got np day and np training. np day is okay but 1 mistake make is my sir suddenly the plegde so we stun at there for a few minutes haha np training is okay also ba i tink so 2moro need go sch for np wednesday also even there is no sch SIANZ! nvm 2day geography lesson something pop out again went to write statement at the last period which is sci! nvm lor monday ms lim den come find me and careen so... wish me good luck ba!
From 2day onwards to monday, all the things about c dun talk! talk during monday! dun spoil my fucking hell mood for the saturday and sunday mood! monday all den settle tats all i wan thanks! if u all really make it my dreams come true i must say thanks!
posted by nickname:piggy on 8:53 PM

Thursday, May 20, 2010

BACK TO BLOGGING 2DAY WHOLE DAY KEEP SAYING ABOUT FILES FILES FILES HATE IT LOR ALL LAST MINUTE 1 LOR! LIFE SUCKS TTM SIA! MY BACK THE SPINE GOT SOME PROB LE DUE TO CAREEN NG KEEP HITTING MY BACK LOR ! BUT IS I LET HER HIT 1 LA SO NVM LOR! DAMN DULAN SIA! 2MORO NP DAY SIANZZZZ!!!! HATE 2MORO SIA HATE EVERYTHING HATE IT! TIS FEW DAYS EVERYTIME AT SCH COM LAB US FACEBOOK TEACHER BRING WHOLE CLASS GO LAB WE LIKE ALL ON9 DEN CHAT ON9 AND NOT FACE TO FACE LOL! NOTHIN TO POST LE FEEL LIKE QUITTING NP!!!
posted by nickname:piggy on 8:14 PM

Monday, May 10, 2010

pass some of the subject damn happy at least pass thought will fail but eventually my happy become sad and angry due to something happen..... nothin to post for 2day le oni will write something for some people.
to meiyu,
try forgetting it ba ok??? although i knw it really difficult and if forget le people talk about the thing again den wat for forgetting it sia???no use 1 because i tired to forget the thing inside my mind but den after a fewdays c will say about it again den all the thing will rewind den inside my mind again i stressing myself out le because of tis matter like wat u say i dun hav do anything wrong y i cnt forget?? seriously speaking i also dun knw i jus tink tat i owe her something or even a word sry but u say it should be c say and not us but u tink will c say ma??? the answer is no.... although she at her blog write sry but den not real person say 1 is jus a post wat for sia seriously wat u say is true la try forgetting it u wan your old meiyu back i wan a cheerful and happy cheerling back and not like tis lor.....

to careen,
u wan wat from my hf and me??? cn u jus say all out and not making us became like tis because of u ok??? eventually me and meiyu wanted to forget about mrs soh thing but now u say about her again for wat sia??? u cnt forget or u dun wanna to forget and use mrs soh to come torture us until we both stress out all the thing cnt do well den u happy isit??? wat u wan from us say all out and not like tis cn ant?? treat tat i pls u la 3 of us wan to hav a normal life back to last time de us la..... me and meiyu dun wanna listen until mrs soh tis word 1 but u 2day at classroom say it again for wat sia??!!! need do things until like tat isit?? make me and meiyu 2day at class totally dun knw wat teacher teaching us dun knw wat we done at classroom and my exam paper all is weiting help me copy the correction 1 u knw tat ant??? i 2day at class totally stress out le damn irritated by u damn frustrated i cnt even do things well eat 3 medicine 2day because of u.... u say tat all is yr fault but u nvr knw wat u really done wrong and u will nvr know it because u dun wanna knw it u scared u cnt control yourself u scared u hurt yrself but u nvr thought about the 3 of us 1 u know tat??? i begged u la let us go la if u wan to play... ok i play with u dun pushed the 2 of them in and make them into more trouble ok??the both of them need to concentrate on their study 1 la and and all tis boliao the things.....

to hf,
try control yrself when u see her... try not to stress yrself ok??? anything u wan from c tell me i help u ask or tell her about it ok??? i know everytime u saw her u damn dulan but try to lax chill cool down dun be angry or wat because of c not worth it 1 la ok??? concentrate on your study pls dun retain pls wanna see u at sec 4 next year and not sec3 dun because of c make yrself like tis cheerup :)
posted by nickname:piggy on 10:04 PM

Sunday, May 9, 2010

2day mother day damn sianz 1 lor mum early in the morning went out le ltr i got tuition the most sianzzz 1 lor 3hour sia cn slp le lor.... yesterday me crystal jiayi and jiefang meet at hub at 3.00pm but den because of the jam outside amk hub due to car accident i waited for them for 30+ minute sianzzzz!!!!! haha at hub walkwalk buy sushi eat den went to 438 there to play basketball at around 4+5 pm play until 7 jiefang went home le me jiayi crystal went to hub again to buy things haha sibei sianzzz lor den i went home they both went to j8 buy straw thanks to jiayi help me buy 3 packet haha ltr goin her house take from her and pay her the money hahahaha..... maybe goin to sentosa 1 of tis days mum can use her point to take the ticket for us hahaha sure damn fun 1 lor i tink so.... post till here ba nothin to post le.....

wish after c tell my something my be angry with me or wat
posted by nickname:piggy on 11:39 AM

Thursday, May 6, 2010

ok back to posting, jus went to careen blog wtf wth!!!! see saw my blog and den post something at her blog fuck her la !!!! she go who blog and have tis link 1 sia!!! change alot of link le wt!!!!!!! nvm 2day art exam 3 word to describe SUCKS LOR WTF!!!! paint the art piece until damn thick cnt dry in time lor shouldnt have paint it !!! next went to 409 the bbt shop there to makan with friends den went to j8 to buy things walk walk and folded damn many hearts but gave them because lazy to cut and bring home haha!!! next stop is amk library saw jolene they all there.... she dun wan to talk to me say wat u bring until so many people here arh?? i dun knw u i dunknw u hack care her lor dun wan talk jiu dun talk better still if u dun knw me delete my contact no.... next is play basketball at 438 there play until siao le lor 1 boy hit my leg with basketball and step my leg pain sia !!!! reach home around 6.40 like tat tink so.... damn tired but dun feel like slpin haha saw careen blog make me damn..... dun wanna say forget it ba!!!! sry arh need to private my blog due to spamming and dun wan careen to see it
posted by nickname:piggy on 7:34 PM

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

hi guys here to post,( sry have to use caps lock)
CCB I HATE PEOPLE CONTROLLING MY LIFESTYLE!!!!I HATE THOSE MAKE PEOPLE INTO MANY TROUBLE AND DUN DARE TO ADMIT THEIR OWN MISTAKES!!! I HATE THOSE PEOPLE MAKE ME TIO TAIJI OR MAKING USE OF ME !!! I HATE MY OWN LIFE ALSO!!! Y MUST THEY LIKE TAT USE OR MAKE ME!!! I DUN UNDERSTAND EVEN ABIT!!! I RATHER DIE DEN LIVING IN TIS KIND OF CONDITION SIA!!! NOTHIN GOES SMOOTHLY FOR ME EITHER HATE IT!!! YYYYY!!! I DUN UNDERSTAND!!!! SOME OF U CARE ABOUT ME, SCARED I DO FOOLISH THING SRY TAT I BROKE MY PROMISE TO U ALL!!! SRY!!! SOME PEOPLE WANNA ME TO TIO MORE TAIJI DEN THEY HAPPY I WISH U KNW WHO U ARE LA!!! I TELL U I WILL TIO MORE TAIJI BUT NOT NOW BECAUSE I DUN WANNA HAVE ANYTHING HAPPEN AND I WANNA MAKE TIS CLEAR TO U ALL FIRST : I WILL TIO TAIJI WITH U MORE AND SEE WHO GET SUSPEND WHO IF ME I HACK CARE AT MOST I RETAIN NIA OK!!! DUN GO FIND OTHERS OR WAT IF WANT COME FIND ME I WILL BE VERY HAPPY DE OKAY!!!!DUN HEAR UNTIL I WILL FAIL DEN AT THERE OWNSELF SMILE TO YOURSELF IF WAN STAND IN FRONT OF ME AND LAUGH I WONT MIND DE OK!!! I ONI WONT KNOW WAT I WILL DO NIA OK!!! AND PLS LA DUN MAKE PEOPLE DULAN BECAUSE OF WAT U DID LA OK!! SEE OR HEAR OR DO THE THINGS RIGHT AND NOT LIKE TAT LA PLS!!! MAKE PEOPLE NO MOOD DO THINGS AND MAKE PEOPLE DULAN UNTIL EXAM NO MOOD DO ANYHOW WRITE THE ANSWER DOWN !!! TIS IS WAT U WAN IS IT?? TELL ME STRAIGHT AND NOT MAKING PEOPLE UNTIL THEY REALLY FAIL THE PAPER DEN U TELL ME OK???

UPDATES FOR 2DAY MTHS PAPER 1: DIE LE LA ANSWER IS ANYHOW WRITE DOWN 1 SIBEI DULAN AND NO MOOD LOR SUCKS SIA CCB TIS YEAR DE MYE SURE FAIL MATHS DE LOR IF THERE IS MIRACLE MAYBE I WILL PASS BA BUT I DUN BELIEVE IN IT HAHA ALMOST SCOLD PEOPLE 2DAY LOLX HATE IT!!! SRY 2DAY NO FREE SHOW WAN FREE SHOW WAIT UNTIL ME AND MEIYU SIBEI ANGRY LE U ALL WILL HAVE FREE SHOW TO WATCH HAHA....

BYWBYE GTG LE HAV TUTION HAHA..... (TRYING TO CHEERUP AND NOT THINKING OF THE THINGS LOR)
posted by nickname:piggy on 12:42 PM

Sunday, May 2, 2010

hi guys back to post 2day got alot of thing make me sibei dulan de.... 1st 1 is about aibe the thingy 2nd facebook the matter... damn dulan right now ... 2day got tuition tell the sci teacher hongkan la ccb we 2 people got make u isit??!!! u our parents isit?? jus a tution teacher give us attitude fuck off la ccb!!! next call aibe ask something hai... now oni can talk to 3 people if not she call police come tio my taiji!!! next come home on9 saw a comment make me more dulan den jus now wtf!!! thanks to those who like hf, karyee make me happy haha:) dun feel like posting anymore damn dulan sry to those i cnt control le
posted by nickname:piggy on 7:01 PM

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

here to update my goin to die blog haha....tis few day chiong all the subject.... 2more lit goin to die le cnt even remember the 3 story sia need read 5times per story i die le sia open the page to the story i goin to slp le sia my mind jus went blank dun knw y..... 1st paper was english quite okay la cn survive through it next chinese i tell u i fail le 70 marks fly away le compo write out of question+ cnt wirte until the full page oni 268 words nia paper 2 dun need say the opp of our class got lc blust the music out some of us reading the passage until read wat the lc is talkin den some of us write wat the lc talk wth!!!! die le la next geog last minute revision totally cnt remember die anyhow write de at the answer sheet anyhow choose a answer for mcq..... 2day got history okok la not so bad cn remember some of the point but mainly all cnt remember next still got lit, sci, maths and art i gettin ready to retain for tis year or maybe go nt hack care le dun feel like chiong le dam tired sia....:((( end my post here will update after eam or wat try to post everyday...

try to keep my promise to some of u but i jus cnt control myself le wat cn i do???
posted by nickname:piggy on 8:28 PM

Sunday, April 18, 2010

hw i wish i cn rewind the time to the 1st training at hta where we begin to know our ci, friends there all had ended by jus a few hours... :( although it had been a hard training for us bt we will remember all the things happen there had learn alot of things there : drills, honour and unity, most improtant is wat ashwin sir say "Coming together is the beginning; Staying together is progress; Working together is success" i thought i will screw up the whole parade as i was sck on atat day lor keep on sneezing and coughing sry if i had nt done a good job yesterday as all the SUPPORTING CONTIGENT is running back to the drill shed we all started shouting.... i see the video at youtube i heard a solid bang a very loud 1 by all the contigent when we have to marh back to the unity square again for the band omg!!! i hear again and again lor... :) so happy bt a bit sad now because training all had end for npap'10 will miss all of the people there will remember the drills teach by them I WAN TO REWIND THE TIME BACK TO THE 1ST TRAINING!!!! bt impossible i wish we will have a meeting outside soon doin drills 2gether again and had u 2 being our ci again :) now back to study le most concentrate le exam 5 more days die!!!
to the both ci,
like wat u all said bring the things we learn back to our squad or cadets and teach them tys for training us so hard.... wish u all have a good day yesterday... :) wish we all will have a meeting soon ok??
to sc4,
i have made a group at facebook join in :) we all yesterday had a good day although afternoon
almost everyone legs is burning like hell due to the sun making our boots burning haha ..... bt we learn alot from the both ci right?? :) bring the memory back and nvr forget remember the first training we had 2gether?? we all dun knw each other at all also bt now when we went back to our classroom we started chatting takin photo to keep it as a memory we had after all:) wish we had a meeting outside soon do drills again ok??? :)

end posting le ba bb
posted by nickname:piggy on 12:04 PM

Saturday, April 17, 2010

2day wait for jolene for around 1 hour at sch gate sianzzz lor after tat went to eat with her haha..... next have npap actual parade 2day nice 1 sia everybody is like jiayous arh say here saythere haha dam nervous 1 lor keep coughing and sneezing when marching sick le lor nice 1 hate to be sick.... next mum keep on callin me for askin me where u all tat hate her sia tell her le i will call her when i reach amk bt she keep on callin me sia like i very free like tat.... reach amk around 9.50 like tat everybody like omg!!! so crazy about 2day...... NVM NPAP IS ALRDY FINISH LE SAD!!! LEARN ALOT OF THING AT THERE SIA SO FUN BT 2DAY REHEARSAL MY LEG IS LIKE WTH BURNING LIKE HELL LOR..... NPCC TRAINING IS BACK FOR THOSE NPAP PEOPLE BUT DUE TO EXAM A FEW WEEKS STOP!!! AH!!! IM ADDICTED TO NPAP AND NPCC LE !!!! sad things is monday morning need to go find miss chin for writing statement again 5 people need to go find her : me , hf, jolene, meiyu and peijun DIE DIE DIE ME AND MEIYU TIS TIME ROUND SURELY TIO SUSPENDSION 1 LOR TIO 2 TEACHER CASE LELOR pro lor ok nvm suspend jiu suspend hack care le.....

to c,
u cut yrself tis is wat u say u regret it le also wat u tell me den if i cut my hand or pulse in front of u will u regret it forever tell u monday see u at sch ready to see me doin tis 1 or 2 things
1. cut my hand infront of u and have alot of bleed come out. or
2. cut my pulse infront of u and den die
3. both also do...
see wat u wan to do nw.... still continue cuting la see wat i do....

to hf,
nothin to say about u 1 lor lol u very sure u throw away all the things le ma??? dun cut yrself cn le ok????
posted by nickname:piggy on 10:44 PM

Friday, April 16, 2010

2day meet hf at foyer around 7am den meet meiyu the same time 2gether go canteen bought 1 bowl of porridge meiyu also bt gt add crabmeat i tink so..... eat until 1/4 full le den cnt eat put the boel back to the shop there.... haha didnt eat medicine 2day as lan duo eat sry meiyu for bringing me bt i didnt touch at all haha lol.... after tat gt a talk at there goin slp le den read storybook dun hav hear wat teacher say at all lor sianzzz..... went to art room for art lesson waited for ms jey for 1 whole period + a few minutes due to she mix the class timetable den is chinese everybody at there play write listen to wat teacher say lor sianzzz mdm yick lor make the whole class like wat the hell dun feel like sayin next recess class key is with me have to wait for inayah they all to come back classroom to put bag den cn go to canteen saw mr yeo on the way to canteen haha say about 2moro npap things lor wat time meet den all tat.... next GEO hate tis fuckin hell teacher lor teach like dun hav teach until make some of us blur blur 1 lor dun even understand wat she sayin den gt geo test didnt even read tink i fail very badly le lor didnt even open the geo book to read until a single stupid word nvm hack care anyhow do..... finally last period le science gt do until something at least whole class like dun treat the teacher there 1 lor play run hahaha..... dun knw wat lesson jianxiang fall down due to i chasing him askin him to delete the photo he take he step until something den fall haha those who see it laugh until omg!!! cnt stop .... bell ring went to toliet with weiting den hf come in and check my bag and my pocket see gt penknife ant wth!!!! let her confiscated like 10++ blade and 2+ penknife ask her throw away she dun wan lor u better dun cut tell u first..... after tat saw hf again chasing me like hell i went to basketball court den 2nd floor staff room there den 1st floor library there den 1 big round around 1st floor haha fun fun fun her eyes very scary lor everytime u win 1.... we did somekind of 'dancing' at the parade square there she keep stepin at my leg lor meiyu and peijun saw le at there laugh hahaha... after tat 1 major thing happen dun wanna say about it lor forget it monday get ready for the things will happen to me le..... internal suspendsion or watso ever hak care le la.....

to c,
u tink pen, pencil or straw can cut yr hand isit??? i use penknife see wat u wan to do u ask me i dare ant i tell u i dare i 2day at canteen do 1 is real 1 more time see wat i will do cut my pulse or hand i hack care tell u first i 2day oni put penknife at my pulse there nia 1 warning nia ok next time i know u cut again i really will cut tell u first u wan play i play with u i cut i hack care at most i die nia den i dun need tink about other things le tell u...... jus now call u tell u wan is real i will cut my pulse in front of u ok??!!!

to all,
i promise u all i dun cut means dun cut le bt if the c keep on doin tis i dun knw wat i will do le ok??? if nw i feel stress or wat i will hit the wall ok???

post until here goin slp le 2moro is the day i need the most energy i ever need.... wish 2moro wont rain if nt wat we all do for tis few months is a waste of thing.... everything will be success 1 JY!!!!
posted by nickname:piggy on 10:16 PM

Thursday, April 15, 2010

2day sch is a dead place for me.... all the lessons is okay except for ce lesson sianzzz talk talk talk mdm rahimah nvr come miss her the relief teacher sucks lor stay for extra 20 minutes as the class is very noise haha lol coughing like hell 2day at class meiyu keep on lookin at me when i ough i wonder y??? haha after sch le very happy 1 bt because of 1 thing i sianzzz ms chin confiscated my itouch lor suckss!!! nvm i nvr blame jolene is i wan to lent her 1 so is my fault....
lately having no trouble at sch except for my hand the thingy..... my hand now blue black le due to hitting my hand at the wall and now ley trembling like hell wish 2moro dn tremble le if not cnt write things properly.... saturday actual npap le dam nervous sia..... wish by 2moro cn take back if not mum will ask me den kana scolded or worse kana beat by her lor... :( i promise some of u i will not cut my hand le bt u all also dun cut ok??? 2day all the blade and penknife confiscated by jolene and hwee fang sibei the jia lat lor nvm haha
to c,
if u wan to cut jus cut nt my business ok??? people cut got reason 1 u ley wat is yrs dun tell me is because i cut u den cut ...... see u at sch already wan to kill myself le after sch still call me for wat u really wan me to die infront of u isit??? girl yr drill nt good dun everytime come find we all nt we all dun wan to help u is jus tat u everytime say u gt flat foot sibei sian 1 u knw tat ant???nvm tink of u oni will make me headache.....
to hf,
dun cut yrself cn ant??? sibei scared u 1 la yr eye hor nothin to say see le like u wan to kill me like tat haha.... sry tat time accidentally cut until u hor ..... i promise i wont cut means i wont cut le ok??? relax ley dun everytime hear until careen tis word became so aggitated must like me relax cool down if wan to scold her jus scold dun care her .....
to jo,
i dun blame u ok?? jus dun cry le everything will be settle 1 ok??? relax

will stop posting le as i having a headache and hand nt tat well haha....
posted by nickname:piggy on 7:22 PM

Saturday, April 10, 2010

hi 2say went to see doctor due to coughing headache and giddy haha cnt do pe for 1 week until next friday lor sianzzz haha nvm see first maybe dun care jus do..... yesterday the sport fiesta should not go sia so sianzzz lor at there.... do nothin after tat went to amk hub the foodfare to makan + saw alot of chong boon people and i was with 3 boys sia WTH!!! tuesday jiu not feelin well le bt hack care still go np haha.... 2moro gt tuition still not sure goin ant having a very pain headache and giddy so hai.... sianzzz dun wan to eat medicine because will make me slp jus nw eat le den slp until 2.30 like tat wake up slp for 1 and a half hour haha sibei hot lor nw the weather OMG!!! nvm.... wish faster monday dun wan to rot at home like hell.... =)
posted by nickname:piggy on 5:06 PM

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

hi 2day sch sucks like hell sia worte 2 statement all because of careen ng tat girl again everytime into trouble i kana 1 sucks right??? wonder y i dun listen to them sia.... now i sure kana suspendsion or wad so ever i sure she dun hav any prob 1 lor nvm hate her...... wonder y ms lim change her sit or meiyu there yyy??? everytime wan to see the broad surely see her back view 1 lor or her face sianzzzzzzzzzzzzz................. i need help sry to joleen yanhui and eunice as mslim wan me to write all the things 1 ..... 2moro got npap(national police aunnual parade) HELP!!! 3 more training to the actual 1 already hw... i need to practice more for my drills le AH!!!.....
posted by nickname:piggy on 7:38 PM

Sunday, April 4, 2010

my left hand no energy le bleeding like hell need to put plaster 2moro go sch cnt so obvious le if nt teacher will knw it very soon haha nvm dun say about tis le 2day gt tuition until 4.30 sianzz lor 3 hour sia..... btw
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHALINI!!!!
2DAY IS YR B'DAY BT I CNT CELEBRATE WITH U BECAUSE OF THE STUPID TUITION SRY ARH 2MORO WILL GIVE U SOMETHING I WISH THERE GT SELL OK??? NOTHIN TO POST FOR 2DAY LE HAI... BYEBYE
posted by nickname:piggy on 11:04 AM

Saturday, April 3, 2010

to hwee fang,
relax arh dun suicide arh.... if i cut i dun tell you haha.... jkjk if u die careen will find me 1 i also dun wan her to come find me haha so RELAX!!! girl

btw 2day all day at hta sianzz lor need to run here run there haha do drills the whole day jus bath ok reach home like 9+ sianzzz 2day i very guai nvr cut my hand... i wonder who cares of me tat much and hu are the 1 who always act in front of me bt behind me is fake fake 1 i really wonder...if u all wan to see hw my hand look like u cn go my profile at facebook and den u will saw it haha if u wan to scold me or watever jus say to me dun need put inside yr heart ok?? i really dun mind if u all say things about me bt i jus wan u all tell me personally ok??? i really jus wan u all to come n make me cheerup i really wan by tis wednesday settle finish all the things lor i promise alot of people le i will "TRY" not to cut bt u all knw im very stress out of tis kind of small little thing became so big because of tat i go cut sry to those who care about me and comfort me alot bt in the end i still cnt cheerup dun knw y...

to c,
i say dun wan settle u say 1 ok nvm tis wednesday if the thing all havent settle yet my jie will come slap u or wat i dun knw i oni knw nw is tat i cnt cheerup all because of u.... u knw tat i bett u dun knw tat at all nvm i dun care wat le i jus wan u tis comin wednesday u will at least say something nt sry i heard tis very long time le i sianzz alrdy after tis comin wednesday i maybe will nt cut le because if the thing settle le i maybe will cheerup bt if nt settle i will still cuting i will not let u knw everything about me le.....seriously speakin i hate u all u knw is to make me into trouble..... nvm if nt settle my jie slap u nvm i get suspend i dun mind at all i will be happy indeed because i dun need to see u for a few day... tats all i say about u i dun feel like thinking watever thing happen to u and me bt i jus cnt forget keep on flashing on my mind

to those who care about me,
seriously i dun knw y i cut myself u all say is about careen i tink so also... 1 jie say nvm i will settle with u all the prob dun cut le....
next 1 say i will cut if u cut yrself ok nvm
next 1 say i will suicide if u cut yrself (i wont let u knw if i cut)
next 1 say nothin
i appreciate all tis bt i scared the last 1 saying nothin to me i scared ltr she dun knw will do wat
most scared 1 is the if u cut i suicide i wan to say to u "dun like tat tink ok??? i scared u really will do it bt.... i really appreciate like wat i say jus now nothin cn change the fact if she say all the truth to me or who i dun knw i jus knw tat i dun wan to lose u as a friend ok???" i now dun knw wat to do sianzzz i try not to do this kind of thing le ok???
posted by nickname:piggy on 10:33 PM

Friday, April 2, 2010

2day cnt control myself cut 1 at my upper hand so when wearing shirt cn cover it countered total 11 cut le wish the 9 cut at my lower hand will be ok soon....i tink sch goin to have a spot check soon i scared ltr teacher find out le ask here ask there nag nag nag sianzzz npcc training ley scared ci saw it le den same as teacher ask alot of question if havent ok i will skip np until my lower hand okay..... y must tis kind of people like me who dun even cherish life stay in tis kind of world sia i hate myself i hate you i hate everything happen to me sia my god sises tell me dun be so emo because they saw me at sch emoemo bt wat cn i do u all tell me dun tink of tat thing bt i cnt forget cn anybody teach me???i dun care i must settle everything by next week if nt i goin to make myself into more things.... everyday at sch see u... u call me i answer wat u tell me i hack care bt u still continue talkin u knw tat....hu cn help me... pull me out from tis kind of situation i gonna be sure tat i will nt do well for tis year examsss i gonna drop to 2ta le.. mum dun care me at all help tis y all the people cn have their parents love bt i cnt wat u oni knw is throw me at home and come back at midnight or worse didnt come back at all stay outside with yr friend....
i jus wanna parent love bt i cant y???

to r,
i dun knw wat happen to u tis few day at sch ... u cn tell me and nt cut yr hand although nt as many as me bt i jus dun wanna my best friendsss like u to get hurt no matter wat u cn tell me everything i cn help u jus remember do well for yr exam ok?? u still gt peijun, jingwen, celestine i tis class u dun need pei me i say i wanna go express u say u wan tto follow me in order for me not to get bully bt u remember almost all yr best friends is in 2nb and not 2e2 or 2e1 or 2ta i dun care i get bully anot i jus dun wan u all my bestie and jies and friends to get hurt understand???
listen to me dun cut le will make u worse...

i oni cn persuade my friends and jies and bestie bt y i cnt persuade myself arh?? 2day tell shalini everything thought she will nag at me or scold me bt she didnt say anything i scared she dun wanna say out and put inside her heart u cn scold me i dun mind i also will feel better bt y u dun wan to scold or shout at me???u oni will make me worried about u alot of people sick 2day shalini hwee fang and careen i wish i sunday sick so monday tuesday dun need go sch..... and i wont be emo and cut my hand again....
posted by nickname:piggy on 9:45 PM

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26/3/2010

hihihi guys and girls... jus come back from library with weiting and armanta.... weiting went home after tat but armanta come my home pei me haha.... sry guys and girls for not replying ya tages for a long time haha because dun feel like goin to my old blog haha.. =D

to her,
i knw u hate me and u knw i hate u bt indeed we dun wan to quarrel with each other and hurt our frriendship. jus treat tat i didnt post anything on facebook and dun care wat i say ok?? i jus wanna stay in tis manner until sec 4 or 5 i wish... if u heard anything from others saying tat i say yr bad word maybe some is true and some are not true or in fact u cn ask me anything u wan i will try to answer u all the question u ask ok??? i promise... dun be so angry or sad jus because of my post and some is nt about u ok??i wish u gt my meaning..

27/3/2010
hi girls and guys, 2day npap is damn damn boring and tiring keep repeating the same things again and agian have a giddy there tell sir den bring me to the first aid there lol.... wonders y am i keep repeating the same thing when i was facing problem actually cn solve the problem easily bt i keep running away from it wat to do sia HELP!!!

to C*****,
u dun knw hw to go home or go to the bus-stop alone isit??!!! need people take u go thought i very you kong isit??!! because of u i need to postpone the time for goin else where ???!!! next time go back yr own can ant say no money den we can lent money to u and take taxi go home y need me use around 1 hour to settle the problem??!! hai me no time to bath !!! AND NEXT TIME DUN GO TELL OTHERS(YOU KNW HU) THINGS TAT I, WEITING AND ARMANTA DUN HAV SAY GO TELL TO OTHERS!! YOU THOUGHT VERY FUN ISIT WAT U SAY WILL MAKE PEOPLE INTO TROUBLE U KNW TAT??? AND DUN EVER SAY BAD THINGS ABOUT MY JIE UNDERSTAND??SERIOUSLY, I WAN TO CHANGE SCH THOUGH I AT TIS SCH HAD ALOT OF FUN AND FRIENDS AT TIS SCH BUT ALOT OF THING NEED TO GO AND DO IT AND ITIS VERY IRRITAING MATTER.SOME WILL MAKE ME INTO TROUBLE LIKE WAT CAREEN USUALLY DO MAKE ME INTO ALL THE THINGS HAPPEN....NOW I ONI WAN TO CONCENTRATE ON THE REVISION AND ALL THE STAFF NOT TIS. U DUN WAN TO GET A BETTER RESULT FOR SA1 BT I WAN WAT U DO ONI TINK ABOUT YRSELF DEN OTHERS LEY??!!! PLS DO TINK ABOUT THEMEND OF MY POSTING WILL WIRTE UNTIL HERE SIANZZ...

28/3/2010
Yay!!! Using itouch posting nw haha yay finally cn le btw ltr gt tuition 3hours sia 2topic sianzzz help dun feel like goin sia wanna go out haha mummy come back from china le cnt go out le hai.... Need to pack my things if nt ltr she come back nag nag nag nag nag nag sianzz

29/3/2010
today at sch happen alot of thing haha at class smsing hwee fang and meiyu(although same class as her) OMG!!! den recess dun feel like sayin at parade square shout and cry at careen haha!!! after sch went to canteen saw hwee fang emoemo reading storybook i thought she doin work sia haha sms her say wow so guai ah... she come find me den chat chat haha say alot of thing about the girl i fight with her today tat make me angry and angrier haha

to c*****,
dun tell lies to jolene they all and make me into trouble understand??!!! everytime you something happen u will drag me or meiyu down.... everytime is we all kana the punishment and nt u.... say sry gt use ma?!?! things happen le say sry everytime i accept it bt nw i wont accept le because tis is the last time and the final time i being use by u and i will nt accept any sry anymore..... u onself spread the news u say me like very fun like tat u r very irritating and has no respect for me..... u dun deserve any kindness and caring attitude from me or others anymore and u dun deserve to be my friend....
bye bye gtg le hav a nice day miss peijun as she gt chicken pox!!! :(

31/3/2010
fuck u!! everytime u say wan to settle something ok we settle as i dun wan to qualler le bt in the end u nvr talk at all oni knw hw to say sry sry sry u thought very fun isit??!!! our time is nt for u to play with lor stop it if u dun wan to settle waste our time !!! i nvr listen to others like jingwen and meiyu their words so u gt me into tis kind of trouble u pro la !!! wtf very fun isit !!!! u gt me almost into blacklist very fun arh i dun mind at all ok???!!! i jus dun wan my jies or friends to be into trouble u knw i will protect them all in order they nt into any trouble every thing u cn push to my side i dun mind at all like meiyu got into b******** very fun isit i will do the same thing back to you no matter wat understand!!! arh!!!! tell u nt fun stop everything before i started to be angry and see wat i will do to u understand!!!

1/4/2010
wat happen to u 2day is not my busi all because of u i and meiyu will became like tat..... i dun let u see my hand because i scared ltr u go tell teacher about it understand dun be so kapo and make yr self into trouble dun feel like talkin about u bt cnt forget wat happen last year until nw hw many time u sabo me before u tell me!!!! everyday at sch must see until u sianzz help !!!btw dun say about her le i must cheerup if nt i goin to brust like hell help!!! 2day sch SUCKS!!! u promise tat u oni cut 1 right y cut until 2 sia..... nvm dun say u me also 2day cut almost 4 like tat =( wish my hand faster okay if not teacher see le will die.... i try not to cut myself bt cnt.... i promise to those who care about me i try not to cut myself hand again ok..... i try oni if cnt i still will cut...

TODAY POST
2/4/2010
ltr goin library with shalini le sianzz haha....hwee fang wish u good luck u must be okay by wednesday.....haha relax on tat day ok???dun be so aggitated...btw nothin to post 2day very short post haha
to c,
u thought nice arh?? nw is u say wan to settle 1 ok?? wednesday u better say something except for saying sry sry sry we hear tis word sianzz le hear u saying million time le everytime something happen u say srysrysrysry very bo liao ley u..... i is listen to jolene they all say dun go say things about u to teachers so i dun hav say in the end?? u push all the blame to me or meiyu very fun hor ...... tell me and meiyu a good reason on wednesday if nt we all 2 dun knw wat we will do understand???????????????????????????

btw thanks jacquelinefor saying "dun cut urself alrdy.No matter how ur life is hard or difficult .Dun resort of hurting yourself.It don't worth , when u're in pain . " tis to me i really appretiate tis


ALL TIS IS THE POST FROM THE LAST BLOG HAHA....
posted by nickname:piggy on 2:25 PM